Getting off my ass

Today was a relaxing and eye-opening day. Not much different from any other Sunday but I paid more attention to things; I thought more about the “why” of what I was doing. Many of the activities that will be mentioned later, made me think of the actual people and

the actual action.

So I begin with taking out my dogs, Anya and Alice. They are the cutest, I swear. Once upon a time I would just let them out while I lay down or get ready for whatever I am about to do. Now I actually go out with them to watch them plus it is much faster when I do watch over them. This was my first revelation, that I actually go out with them, I put on shoes, take off my bonnet, and go outside. This may sound like nothing to someone but for me, it was different. I did not care who saw me or who judge me for how I looked. I did not care. It made me wonder who I was becoming. From there, I could tell that today would be different. So I usually sleep, wake up, and repeat but instead of going back to sleep, I watched Desus & Mero/Desus vs. Mero and the Breakfast Club interviews. I thought about Desus, Mero, Charlamagne, Envy, and Angela Yee. I think about their start and their grind to get to where they are now, and then I think about the motivation and how I am watching them from my little life and thinking that I could do the same thing if I just got off my ass. I think about how lazy I am which in comparison to the people around me, wouldn’t look much like lazy but seeing people in higher positions shows me I should not settle. I believe that I am destined for much more than sitting on my ass and settling at a job that does not make me happy.

I know that I want to do more, be more but I am still not at the point where I know what. I don’t know my legacy but I know that I am destined for one. I struggle with believing that I am not like everyone else and thinking that I am exactly the same as any other 23 year old who just graduated from college. In the end, I remember that it is my life no matter if it is similar to someone else’s, it is still my unique life that I can do whatever I want with it.

Therefore, instead of sitting on my ass, I got up and sat at my beautiful new desk that I just bought and researched web development certification. I have always been very interested in computers but totally threw it out of my mind when deciding on a major in college. The interest came back to me as I worked my 8-4:30 job (like does anyone still have a 9-5?). Designing different forms, posts, and sites made me realize that I am meant to do something other than what I am doing now. So I consulted with my Uncle, which is someone whom I highly respect who helps with major decisions like this. He told me that I should get a certification in the subject first then if I am truly interested to go full on depending on how much I want to learn about designing sites. So now that is where I am, getting off my ass and into the world.

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