That time I typed while under the influence

Broadcasting live from smacked city, it is your girl, JEEEELLLLL. Au Revoir everyone.

It has been a rough ass day. Luckily, the guy Allen came through. So I have been thinking about someone for some time now but I think that I am good now. I believe that it is mostly because I don’t know what I want and I don’t know what I envy. I struggle between what I think my life should be and what my life is. Sometimes I think “don't do this, you are better than this, this is not a good choice” but then later I am like why the hell didn’t I do that. I understand that it was a bad decision but sometimes you have to make bad decisions to learn what exactly was bad about the situation.

I am just soaring right now. I am wondering if I should even edit this or just post it because I mean “wow”. I was literally about to go on a long thing about not using punctuation and I thought "how are they going to know when I pause, when I stopped and when I was excited?" so I decided against it.

Another thing that I struggled with today is my job. I was stuck in between wanting to be the best, deliver the best work and just being stressed out, saying forget it all. I wouldn’t say I love nor hate my job but it does take its toll on me. I am unsure if it is me or if I am really being overworked. Internally, I really don’t know because sometimes people tell me they are going through the same thing but at the same time things are relative, what may be too much for you may not too much for me and vice versa.

Let me just apologize for the above. I thought about editing it but that would not be authentic plus I am finishing this almost six days later. The message may be changed if I were to edit. :)

#struggle #indecisive #dazed #confused