From 2018 to 2019

From looking like a southern belle, day drinking in New Orleans to looking like Wanda from Holiday Heart while crying my eyes out, getting over a four-year situationship. This year has been an emotional rollercoaster. If you would have told me at the beginning of the year that I was going to New York to attend Trilloween, I would have never believed it. I have really experienced so much this year and that is what I am most excited about. There are so many rough stories but also amazing ones. It was so hard to open up about what I wanted, to say how I felt (and it still is) but now, I make an effort to do

so. I reflect, analyze, and make decisions. I've become much more assertive and I love it so much! Through these experiences, I've grown to learn what I like and don't like. I've set boundaries for people because I needed to. I was unhappy with not only me but the way people treated me. While still practicing my assertiveness, I've learned that I have to hold others accountable, as well as myself. I forgave easily, gave people the benefit of a doubt, and trusted others. I learned that I have to accept people exactly how they are and determine if I can tolerate it. Also, I have to embody the person I believe to be and accept others opinion of not wanting to tolerate it. More focus needs to be instilled in me. I get distracted, get lazy, discouraged but I must focus on myself. Must focus on moving forward and sometimes that means making hard decisions. Decisions to spend copius amount of cash, to walk away, to wake up, to cut people off, to seclude myself, etc. Putting myself out there was a challenge then it became a crutch. Instead of constantly talking and whining about my future, I must set new goals and challenges. Although I am still in progress, I am proud of me! I had so much fun this year and I wouldn't one thing (though, there was that trip to Shreveport). Many mistakes were made but lots of lessons were gained. May 2019 be even better.